The Fucking Machine
Wed. Sept. 4
I didn't write here again yesterday immobilized by an immense fecklessness. I'm sitting at the bar in the French place called The Canteen here on Cahuenga. I ordered an $8 lamb sandwich that came laced with strands of rubbery fat from which I would chew off as much meat as possible and pull the rest out of my mouth with my fingers. The bread they gave me was stale, too. My credit card is near the limit, so I cut across the street to the ATM at my credit union, and when I inserted the card the fucking machine swallowed it and flipped me off. I punched a few buttons, but the machine maintained its digital bird. I looked at my watch. It was four minutes to five. The bank closes at five. I scooched in past the security guard. The woman at the reception area matter-of-factly informed me that the cards eaten by the ATM are usually destroyed. "Then I need to make a withdrawal," I said. She askd for my ID. I had to explain that local law enforcement representatives had relieved me of said ID. I felt a new line etching itself into my forehead among its older brothers. The woman asked for my social security number. I told her. She asked me my address, and I told her. She asked how much money I wanted, and I said forty bucks. She gave it to me. ~~~Now I'm waiting for alcohol school to start. I have about an hour. I'd like to drink a beer. If the instructor at the alcohol school suspects that I'm under the influence, I'll be suspended and sent back to court. There's a blue bottle between the Amstel and the Heineken up on the shelf behind the bar that I don't recognize. When I'm done here, I'll ask the pretty barmaid who just came in what it its.
What else? A guy in the park out the window across the street walking his dog scratched his nuts.
I started to read Richard III last night, The Tragedy of.
There's a girl in my alcohol class who afterward walks home. We have walked together as far as my car. Tonight I should walk her home. Dumb I didn't do it the first time.
Shirelle's network television debut is this Saturday morning. I planned on going to the UCLA Writing Program Open House at that hour. She is miffed. I like when you open a bottle of beer and the spirit come rushing out. Look at that.
I didn't write here again yesterday immobilized by an immense fecklessness. I'm sitting at the bar in the French place called The Canteen here on Cahuenga. I ordered an $8 lamb sandwich that came laced with strands of rubbery fat from which I would chew off as much meat as possible and pull the rest out of my mouth with my fingers. The bread they gave me was stale, too. My credit card is near the limit, so I cut across the street to the ATM at my credit union, and when I inserted the card the fucking machine swallowed it and flipped me off. I punched a few buttons, but the machine maintained its digital bird. I looked at my watch. It was four minutes to five. The bank closes at five. I scooched in past the security guard. The woman at the reception area matter-of-factly informed me that the cards eaten by the ATM are usually destroyed. "Then I need to make a withdrawal," I said. She askd for my ID. I had to explain that local law enforcement representatives had relieved me of said ID. I felt a new line etching itself into my forehead among its older brothers. The woman asked for my social security number. I told her. She asked me my address, and I told her. She asked how much money I wanted, and I said forty bucks. She gave it to me. ~~~Now I'm waiting for alcohol school to start. I have about an hour. I'd like to drink a beer. If the instructor at the alcohol school suspects that I'm under the influence, I'll be suspended and sent back to court. There's a blue bottle between the Amstel and the Heineken up on the shelf behind the bar that I don't recognize. When I'm done here, I'll ask the pretty barmaid who just came in what it its.
What else? A guy in the park out the window across the street walking his dog scratched his nuts.
I started to read Richard III last night, The Tragedy of.
There's a girl in my alcohol class who afterward walks home. We have walked together as far as my car. Tonight I should walk her home. Dumb I didn't do it the first time.
Shirelle's network television debut is this Saturday morning. I planned on going to the UCLA Writing Program Open House at that hour. She is miffed. I like when you open a bottle of beer and the spirit come rushing out. Look at that.