9-17-01 M 1:57 PM
No one will want to read a book that complains about America
like Jim does. Whatever. I need a drink. I have to get straight home to babysit
when school ends in half an hour. I’ll eat when I get home. I’ll be riding my
bike. The market dropped. Who can think? Argh. I typed fifteen minutes on the
laptop. Read the newspaper. We ate at the Pantry Saturday morning. A cel phone
rant at the table of brown-skinned foreigners, Latin or Arab. “Johnz,” Reg
asked, echoing my thoughts, “Is that Spanish they’re speaking?” I strained to
listen. It was Spanish. They were not suicidal extremists who had just gotten
the call to pull the cord on the bomb in their backpack. I’m going out drinking
tonight. Shoot some pool. Where? There is nothing else? Maybe if I turn off the
radio. Turn off NPR. Whatever. Ugh. Arg. Ackfuck. I think maybe if I didn’t curse
so much, God would not allow so much horror into this world. Rosh Hoshana
starts tonight. Florelle called from the supply shed as I was heading to my car
on Friday. She said, “I’m not gonna tell you who, but someone said she wished
she would have married you.”
“That’s embarrassing,” I said. “I’m not even going to try to
guess who.” Maybe this unknow party would like to give me a handjob some time,
though. Just kidding, honey. Lately, I crave
drink when it’s not around; then when it is, I don’t want it. Thirteen minutes
until the bell rings. I have to put the homework on the board. I have to pay
the phone bill. Shall I fill out the mentor application” I have to send in confirmation
for a salary point workshop on Saturday, October 13th. There’s
something after school Wednesday, too, at Le Conte Middle School, wherever that
is. I’ll rad a few pages of the Guide to LA Lit Agents, though it’s a waste of
time. No one will consider my manuscript until it’s finished, and I’ll have forgotten
everything by then, or the info will be out of date. Still, maybe I can lay myself
a foundation for understanding the business. I lack stamina anymore. My lungs,
legs, hands, and wrists are all achy. I’ve become weak. I’m sick of kids.
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