4-20-00 Th 1:56 PM
This vacation is just about over. Not much I can do about it. Being a family man, I'm broke. I never wrote here yesterday. I did add three or four lines to Jim today and wrote a pathetic third-person page. Typed fifteen minutes. Went with Rochelle to Santa Monica City College. That turned me into a horny college freshman again. Rochelle got info to enroll in classes over the summer. Now I'm sitting in the backyard. I read about Maria's daily escape to the freeways of LA in Play It. Was there no traffic back then? Read about the Riordan/Mahoney covenant in Quartz. Now what? I've got a beer I'm afraid to open. I never learned to just fuck and forget. That would have been wise. I fell for all that decency bullshit. Too late now. "Too late now" is becoming a new mantra. I need to get some exercise. Go for a bike ride. Maybe call Carlos. [photo from June '95, snow-capped peaks, Olympic National park] June 95 was right before I started keeping really extensive journals. Maybe there's stuff about it in the green one with the yellow pages. I should start providing captions, duh. I might golf tomorrow. I feel like a bad husband. Maybe I'll make a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. I haven't read the news today, oh boy. [black ink sketch of snow-capped peaks, Olympic National Park, June '95] It's a sunny spring day, rustling leaves, chirping avians. I'd love to tur-ur-urn you-u-u o-o-on. I haven't smoked today because I got so depressed yesterday.
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