8-11-98 5:05 PM Tu
I'm drinking coffee at the Atlas Bar and Grill which adjoins the Wiltern Theater here on Wilton and Western. I agonized all day whether or not to move up my flight and do that baseball tour. I'm having a hard time justifying it and an equally hard time deciding against it. I can't afford it. But I can pull it off. What should I do? I need a sign. Ugh. What a day. I don't want to get into it. I think I can do some serious writing tonight. Aaron's car stereo, the rollerblades. The stereo was stolen while Jim was borrowing Aaron's car because his had broken down. I slept on the couch again today. I read a short story called "Concerning Mold on the Skin, Etc." Something like that. It was about a 1650's guy who forsook his family to study things under a microscope he had invented. In the end, he looked into his daughter's tear. I thought it was an analogy for writing. Guy locks himself in a room and uses his family's pain for his life's work. There's more, but I'm so down and lazy today. Last night a read an essay about a woman with a fucked up face. She'd had bone cancer in her jaw. It was about society's reactions to her and the resulting ways that affected her identity. I read a Ring Lardner story, too, "Who's Deal?" Ignorant, overly-talkative bitch wife at a bridge game. It's all in her out-loud voice. I read another Lardner story about a guy who sold bad poetry, not knowing it was bad, not knowing publishers wanted it because it was so bad. I started writing a story about a recently-divorced construction worker who likes hard-boiled eggs. I stopped working on it when Shirelle came over. This place is funny. It's kind of industrial post-modern meets Brazilian carnival. What else? I hope when I wake up tomorrow that I'll know what to do. I had a Taco Bell burrito this morning and I at three PB&Js just before coming here. My night school class starts in fifteen minutes. What else? Shirelle left a bunch of deranged messages on my machine. Then she called and hung up all afternoon. I can expect that all night, I'm sure. It just now occurs to me that I didn't feed the meter where I parked before I came here. Fuck. Hope I get a break. What else? I've got to get going. I wonder if they have happy hour prices here. What else? Ugh. I have to go teach. I'm sick of it. I should go for it back-East.
I'm drinking coffee at the Atlas Bar and Grill which adjoins the Wiltern Theater here on Wilton and Western. I agonized all day whether or not to move up my flight and do that baseball tour. I'm having a hard time justifying it and an equally hard time deciding against it. I can't afford it. But I can pull it off. What should I do? I need a sign. Ugh. What a day. I don't want to get into it. I think I can do some serious writing tonight. Aaron's car stereo, the rollerblades. The stereo was stolen while Jim was borrowing Aaron's car because his had broken down. I slept on the couch again today. I read a short story called "Concerning Mold on the Skin, Etc." Something like that. It was about a 1650's guy who forsook his family to study things under a microscope he had invented. In the end, he looked into his daughter's tear. I thought it was an analogy for writing. Guy locks himself in a room and uses his family's pain for his life's work. There's more, but I'm so down and lazy today. Last night a read an essay about a woman with a fucked up face. She'd had bone cancer in her jaw. It was about society's reactions to her and the resulting ways that affected her identity. I read a Ring Lardner story, too, "Who's Deal?" Ignorant, overly-talkative bitch wife at a bridge game. It's all in her out-loud voice. I read another Lardner story about a guy who sold bad poetry, not knowing it was bad, not knowing publishers wanted it because it was so bad. I started writing a story about a recently-divorced construction worker who likes hard-boiled eggs. I stopped working on it when Shirelle came over. This place is funny. It's kind of industrial post-modern meets Brazilian carnival. What else? I hope when I wake up tomorrow that I'll know what to do. I had a Taco Bell burrito this morning and I at three PB&Js just before coming here. My night school class starts in fifteen minutes. What else? Shirelle left a bunch of deranged messages on my machine. Then she called and hung up all afternoon. I can expect that all night, I'm sure. It just now occurs to me that I didn't feed the meter where I parked before I came here. Fuck. Hope I get a break. What else? I've got to get going. I wonder if they have happy hour prices here. What else? Ugh. I have to go teach. I'm sick of it. I should go for it back-East.
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