W 1:03 PM 11-24-99
I’m in the school library with the rest of the faculty. It’s a pupil-free day. We’ve been sitting in meetings all
morning. I read my newspaper, even
though Mrs. James and Mrs. Berger said it was rude. I wanted to tell them to mind their own business. Ugh. I
had a dream that I was at Knott’s Berry Farm with Anne and all the ice between
us had melted and she was warm with me and smiling, and we were holding
hands. I woke directly from that dream
bitterly disappointed that it wasn’t real.
I groaned and rolled over and punched the bed and went back to sleep. Urg. I
ate no breakfast this morning. I was sitting
on the couch, bummed. I heard Shirelle
get her mail. I peeked out the window
and saw her get in her car and drive away.
I drove to work. Everybody read
my paper before I did. The meetings have
been about new report cards and ELD levels.
Yawn. We went to KooKooRoo at
lunch. I drove King, Gillespie, and
Florelle, and we met Estelle, Nattaz, and Mulroney. I couldn’t talk much. Ralph and I talked about going to play golf
and shoot a little pool today. I didn’t
dare look at her today. AUGH! Her door is open. How unusual.
What if I went over and told her about my dream? Fucking dream. Can’t help what we dream. Don’t talk to her. An open door isn’t necessarily an
invitation. I had a beer and a whiskey
at Dublin’s with Slim Jim last night. He
took me to task for looking like I don’t listen. He said I am uncommunicative. Same as Shirelle says, and James, and
Berger. Phantom keeps wanting to express his
affection. I think his TB is heightening
his sense of mortality. I could go for
playing some basketball today. I have to
do a third-person page. I haven’t read
any Poe for a few days. Haven’t worked
on Jim. I have to get more frames and
albums. Get that entertainment
center. I’ve got ironing to do. Got to wash the car. I mopped this morning. I’ve got to empty the dishwasher. Feel like playing guitar. Why would she leave her door open if not to
invite visitors? She could open the
window if she wanted fresh air and still maintain her whole keep-away aura.
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