1-10-98 10:51 AM Sa
Dismal. No-girl dismalness. The day yawns ahead. Should I go drip another couple of hundred dollars in the hopes that painting supplies will help to get it off my chest? How about a new camcorder? Here's my guitar right next to me. There are three fingers of Turning Leaf cabernet sauvignon 1995 left in the bottle on the coffee table. There's a mug of fresh coffee, too, and some roaches. I took a swig. And another swig. Should I just write and wait for Shirelle to call? We'll only hurt each other. The floor needs vacuuming. I read to page thirty in Tropic of Capricorn. I can type all day, but I know it will be very difficult. Life without love, is that what it's about? While I was crossing the street today on the way to buy a newspaper in the wet morning, down at the three-way intersection of Pico askew with San Vicente and Keniston and Venice, where you have to cross the street six times to get all the way over, I was thinking how Shirelle's most natural tendency is toward chaos. My life will always be like this. Happiness is a carrot on a stick. Even if you get it, though, you don't believe it, and throw it away. Have I ever taken a longer time to fill a journal? You need to be able to withstand the horrible things you will say to each other. Feel like I don't know her anymore. Feel alone. I would rather be hers. Thing made margaritas. How to get more out of life. We've just come from dropping fifty bucks on my credit card at Dublin. It's Saturday night. I have to go to work Monday. Internalize. Over-analyze. Here come the negative creeps. The girl is supposed to call tonight.
Dismal. No-girl dismalness. The day yawns ahead. Should I go drip another couple of hundred dollars in the hopes that painting supplies will help to get it off my chest? How about a new camcorder? Here's my guitar right next to me. There are three fingers of Turning Leaf cabernet sauvignon 1995 left in the bottle on the coffee table. There's a mug of fresh coffee, too, and some roaches. I took a swig. And another swig. Should I just write and wait for Shirelle to call? We'll only hurt each other. The floor needs vacuuming. I read to page thirty in Tropic of Capricorn. I can type all day, but I know it will be very difficult. Life without love, is that what it's about? While I was crossing the street today on the way to buy a newspaper in the wet morning, down at the three-way intersection of Pico askew with San Vicente and Keniston and Venice, where you have to cross the street six times to get all the way over, I was thinking how Shirelle's most natural tendency is toward chaos. My life will always be like this. Happiness is a carrot on a stick. Even if you get it, though, you don't believe it, and throw it away. Have I ever taken a longer time to fill a journal? You need to be able to withstand the horrible things you will say to each other. Feel like I don't know her anymore. Feel alone. I would rather be hers. Thing made margaritas. How to get more out of life. We've just come from dropping fifty bucks on my credit card at Dublin. It's Saturday night. I have to go to work Monday. Internalize. Over-analyze. Here come the negative creeps. The girl is supposed to call tonight.
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