11-22-00 W 6:06 PM
Waiting for the bus at Fairfax and Sunset, “Spare a
cigarette, Bro?” guy with a beard walking a dog asks. A camouflage bus went by
the other way. It looked like place where nothing wass happening but obviously
trillions of things were happening. The bus came. He stood in it, scribbling,
ass in someone’s face, probably wished he’d just sit down. He could feel the warmth
of the people next to him. Felt like a sardine, but it wasn’t a bad thing:
humble and lucky. The driver honked pedestrians off the sidewalk back to the
grass as she zoomed in. He wrote walking in the dark from Wilshire and La Brea
all the way home the opposite of nothing, like finding missing jokes.
Sun 11-26-00 7:37 AM
The phone rang. By the time I got out of bed, no one was
there. The baby wailed like a banshee all night—heart-rending screams, as if
she now realizes, two weeks after she arrived so peacefully, that existence
bears as much or more misery as it does contentment. It pains you as a father to
think maybe your poor, beautiful little baby might rather not have been born—that
we have brought her here against her wishes and our better judgement.
She’s sleeping happily now upon her mother’s breast.
Yesterday, we put her in the stroller and and rode down to
Olvera Street on the subway. She slept through a serenade of “Del Fondo Del Mi
Alma.” She slept through everything. We went down to Pershing Square to see the
ice skaters. It’s a distant second cousin, once removed, from Rockefeller
Plaza. Cheap, cheesy, and way too small. We ate tortillas and beans and rice
and split a beer at La Placita and strolled through Union Station. The wife just
brought the baby out to me. She’s lying in my lap with her head on my knees and
her feet on my belly. She’s content this morning.
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